The jury is still out...

Well i have managed to make it through two days of work now and it really isn't that bad! Of course i cried when i left him monday but i was ok by the time i got to work. And it is so nice knowing its my momma takin care of him and i can go peek at him during lunch if i want to. Let me just say here and now...mom thank you soooooo much! I wouldn't be able to bear anyone else taking care of my sweet little boy! What i can't imagine, however, is doing this for years to come. its almost like this is just for a few months and then things will be different....it's like i can't imagine having a child for the rest of my life! Isn't that the weirdest thing? One day you are the person you've always known and then BAM your a mom and a family and it's never going to go back to the other way...wow. Parenthood is a crazy thing. It changes you so much, but i have to say thus far is well worth it. Coming home to that beautiful face and that toothless grin will melt your heart in an instant! One more thing that is so crazy that i just have to mention is the whole pumping thing! I sit in the back doctors study 2-3 times a day to pump and there is not a whole heck of a lot you can do while pumping so i close my eyes and just think (or fall asleep, whichever comes first) and again i can't imagine doing this akward thing for the next year!!!! And its always intersting to see what the great and mighty pump has to say today....ladies if you have ever pumped you know what i'm saying! that thing has some intersting 3 word sentence to say everyday and everyday it is different! Like "give it up, give it up" believe me its very funny and odd at the same time. So we will continue to see how things go. I gotta run the little man is screaming for the milk...